My friend, Mandy, her husband, Marty, and their two kids had come to our home for dinner one evening, and I mentioned that Scott was looking for our son. The next night, I had a message from Mandy. It read, "Here's his profile :) No pressure... bring Cullen home, please, please, please ;)".
I clicked on the link, and I saw such a familiar face staring back from the screen, so much like the face of our daughter waiting in EE. And I knew. I ran down to our family room with the netbook to show Scott the profile, and then I left him alone.
All along, I've given the responsibility of softening Scott's heart to our child(ren) up to God, because I don't want this to be a Chandres thing. This is all about us following God's command, not Scott following his nagging wife's whines and pleas.
It has taken a lot of prayer, a lot of talking about whether we feel equipped to take on two more children, a lot of realizing that we're in for a BIG adjustment period. But when we look at his photo, we see our son. And that is enough to make us move forward.
I'd be lying if I said it wasn't scary, stepping further into the unknown. When you choose to adopt one child, everyone thinks you're doing something great; when you announce that you're adopting two, there is less happiness, and more worry in the responses. And that's okay. We're not adopting to earn praises, we're adopting in response to God's command for our family.
We are very, VERY excited that we are now adopting two children; in a sense, it's like finding out at the ultrasound that you're actually expecting twins! Of course, the kids are thrilled, but they'd be okay with us bringing home every child in EE so, as long as they're not upset, we'll take that as a good sign.
We can't wait to announce who we're adding to our family, and we'll be on the New Commitments page on Reece's Rainbow, hopefully within the next few days! In the meantime, this does add more agency fees, about $3500, and the foreign agency wants those ASAP. So, while I still feel weary from fundraising around $8,000 (and paying over $11,000) in two months, it is onward we go...
(And this is for my dad.)
Onward, Christian soldiers, marching as to war, with the cross of Jesus going on before. Christ, the royal Master, leads against the foe; forward into battle see his banners go!
At the sign of triumph Satan's host doth flee; on then, Christian soldiers, on to victory! Hell's foundations quiver at the shout of praise; brothers, lift your voices, loud your anthems raise.
Like a mighty army moves the church of God; brothers, we are treading where the saints have trod. We are not divided, all one body we, one in hope and doctrine, one in charity.
Crowns and thrones may perish, kingdoms rise and wane, but the church of Jesus constant will remain. Gates of hell can never gainst that church prevail; we have Christ's own promise, and that cannot fail.
Onward then, ye people, join our happy throng, blend with ours your voices in the triumph song. Glory, laud, and honor unto Christ the King, this through countless ages men and angels sing.