Tuesday, April 24, 2012

Be still, and let God move.

"Be still, and let God move."

These are the words I read yesterday, and the timing was no coincidence.  Since January, I have worked and worked at fundraising, and obviously it's been successful.  Scott and I have paid $3,300 or so out-of-pocket, another $8,000 has already been paid through fundraising, and $1,700 is sitting in our adoption account.  That means that, just since January 16, when a friend of mine made the very first contribution to our ChipIn, we have had about $13,000 pass through our hands, and almost $10,000 has come through fundraising.

Now, before anyone thinks I'm taking ANY credit for these funds coming in, I'm not.  At. All.  We are so blessed with friends who are willing vessels for God to flow through, who have given to us, advocated for us, and prayed over us.  We were contacted about our first few giveaways, and all we had to do was set up the ChipIn, the rules of entry, and push the giveaways like there was no tomorrow!  All of the glory for the money that has come in is God's alone.  

Last week, Andrea Roberts (founder of Reece's Rainbow) posted that "God can move mountains, but don't be surprised if He asks you to pick up a shovel."  Let me tell you, God has had me shoveling!  I don't think I have slept well since we started this process, and I'm even having dreams that people we've never met are approaching us with tens of thousands of dollars.  (By the way, if anyone cares to make that dream come true, we'd be happy to receive it!)

Back to the shovels.  Our current giveaway, the Two Times the Love Giveaway, is just that mountain that won't budge, won't chip, won't melt.  And it's really been a source of spiritual warfare for me.  All I can think about is the money we still need, the $3,470 we need in cash, and especially the $2,770 we need right now.  And after reading those words today, to "be still, and let God move," I've decided to do just that.  

So, I'm taking the rest of the week off.  I'm not checking my emails every 30 seconds to see if someone has donated or emailed, I'm not checking my blog stats to see if people are actually coming to my blog, and I'm setting down my shovel.  I'm spending the majority of the rest of the week in God's word, moving my focus back to my Father.  (I am not disappearing entirely, but it may take me a few hours to get back to you, because my Bible will be open more and my email/facebook/blog will be open less.)

Will you all pray for me?  Will you pray that I feel the weight of this attack lift off my shoulders, off my heart?  I have so much to rejoice about right now, and this attack has felt like a dark cloud, overshadowing my joy. And I'll be back next week, with a renewed spirit, and a refocused heart.

1 comment:

  1. Praying for you! Fundraising can swallow us up entirely if we do not remember who all the shoveling is for...who provides the muscles to shovel, who provides the air we inhale while we shovel... God is faithful and I pray that you will see and feel the weight removed as you focus on our glorious Lord.